I’ve been alone for quite some time in Second Life. Being alone never used to really bother me much. I enjoyed it because I could do my own thing and not have to answer to anyone else. But as time has gone on, I realized that I was starting to miss the companionship of someone else. Granted, I’ve had flings and have dabbled with the idea of being with people, but it never seemed to exactly fit.
Now I know I’ve written about this exact thing, but I’m coming back to it because I feel I need to. I need to express myself that I am willing to be open again. Open, how you might ask. I wish to be open to anything. To allow exploration of ones senses and conversation. To not be subjected to the same old, same old that seems to litter our community.
So – I venture. I seek to explore like mind individuals who want to take a chance and dance. I slide myself back into a place that seems familiar, when words were part of my life, instead of the hussle and bustle of events. I call for conversation! I call for a willingless to learn about others.
But something holds me back, keeping it’s claws on my shoulders so that I do not launch forward and fall flat on my face. I am cautious of people. Truths can be twisted and we need to be able to believe only words. We cannot see expressions and hear emotions from the words on a screen. Instead we need to believe what we see in front of us, but our skepticism keeps us from doing so. How do we bypass this? When do we allow to have trust come into play?
When do we allow trust to actually take the reigns of what we want? It’s a burden that I have within myself and I battle each day. One of these days, I will conquer it though – then what will happen?
For credits and landmarks, see below ❤Dress: Baiastice – Oceane Dress in White / Sissy Pessoa *Collabor88*
Headpiece: [The Forge] Boho Headchain in Silver / Deccan Arida *Epiphany*
Necklace: [The Forge] Boho Necklace in Silver / Deccan Arida *Epiphany*
Mesh Head: [LeLutka] Mesh Head Karin / Jadenart
Mesh Head Appliers: Glam Affair – [LetLutka Heads] Tecia Mermaid – America 03 / Aida Ewing *Collabor88*
Hair: [LetLutka] Dakota (Range) / Thora Charron *Hair Fair*
Pose: Del May / Del May
Floor: =Eli Bailey= Ivy / Shutedelory *The Men’s Dept*