I’ve been told I should write of my experiences with what I’m going through. Currently, many know that I was diagnosed in August with Breast Cancer. Previously it had been stated I was a Stage One Ductal Carcinoma, but ended up that they misdiagnosed me and I in fact am Stage Two Triple Negative. It’s been a bit of a whirlwind…I try talking about it but it gets rather cumbersome and depressing.
My mind is scattered. I don’t want to be the poster child for people, although I feel like it. I am amazed at the support and prayers from my friends, family and strangers, but lost in my own sea of darkness because I don’t want to be in this place. I don’t want this attention. I want my normal life back, where I was doing everything that I wanted to do, not fighting this invisible monster that is destroying my health. The chemo – although supposedly supposed to help – wrecks havoc with my body and mind. It makes me feel less of the person I am. I feel weak, I can’t get out of bed, barely eat, it hurts to sit up – like even now. It hurts to put my thoughts on here…I know I sound dismal, but how can one express how they feel without crying and letting it out. I hate this ride.
I am hoping, that after this has passed, that life will go back to normal. I am hoping, fingers crossed, never to go through this again. I am hoping…hoping that others don’t have to experience this. I need all the strength and shoulders I can get.
For credits and landmarks, see below ❤Scarlet Creative – Du Macaron in Blush / Charlotte Bartlett *TLC*
Body: -Belleza- Venus / Tricky Boucher
Skin: -Belleza- Grace in Fair 1 Bl / Shyla Diggs *NEW*
Hair: Tableau Vivant – Koyo Hair / Marilyn Magic *The Season’s Story*
Crown: ieQED – Gloriana Crown in Silver / Sigifaust *The Fantasy Collective*
Pose: Bauhaus Movement / LouLou Teichmann