Spot[light]

Sunday musings…

I worry sometimes of the existence I have in Second Life. It’s a sad thing to worry about since – really – I have other bigger fish to worry about, but I worry. Maybe it’s just a normal thing for someone myself. For a few years now, I’ve built myself up – Katya – up to be in a spot that I enjoy. I love running my event, I love creating, I love blogging and flourishing SL Blogger Support.

But I worry. I worried as I laid at my massage appointment yesterday, face down, hands pulling the tension out of my body, but my mind wandered to Second Life. I worried and let it fester on what I was not able to accomplish anymore. I felt guilty for not blogging as much and how little I’ve spent on my store. The stress ticked at my senses and plundered me. I took on too much, I can’t keep up, I’m going to disappoint those I promised. I’m losing that light that used to be at my fingertips.

I can hear myself – oh how silly I sound – and I know other will say “You have to step back, you have to relax, you have to take care of yourself.” I’m stubborn. I like – liked the way my Second Life was. I don’t want to let go or change…but boy do I have to. That’s a hard pill to swallow.

My spotlight is dimming. I think that’s a cue to go behind the scenes until life…settles.

For credits and landmarks, see below ❤

Spot[light]

Dress: {Junbug} – Mistress Xanthe in Azure (s) / Juno Matel *FaMESHed*
Necklace: 22769 – Cascade Necklace in Black / Paco Pooley & Manuel Ormidale
Skin: -Belleza- Brooke Uber in Med 3 Dk / Shyla Diggs *Uber*
Hair: TRUTH Hair – Vixen / Truth Hawks *Uber*
Hands: Slink – Mesh Hands in Elegant / Siddean Munro
Pose: Le Poppycock / Olivia LaMonde

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