Send me an angel…

Lazy Sunday…ramblings. Since I’m sick, I apologize in advance for my lucidity. I felt that in thinking of what I wanted to write about I would have to say it was from something that I mentioned on plurk the other day:

“One should never be made to be treated like shit. If someone degrades you, makes you feel worthless, makes you feel like you’re nothing and constantly attacks you – remove them from your life. You are not a punching bag. You are a person with amazing feelings and intuitions. We all have our ups and downs and deal with things in our own ways, but for the love of all things – do not abuse the people in your lives that listen and care for YOU. That’s my PSA for today. Fanks.”

We all have our ups and downs. We all have bad days and we make it out to seem that the world is ending around us. Sometimes though, in our wake of wanting to backlash and get rid of the things we feel like are causing us grief, we hurt the ones around us. We use them as a “literal” punching bag because we can’t seem to hold on to the anger anymore. Sometimes, those people we barge on will forgive us for doing so, other times – they toss us their hands and say “that’s enough, I’m tired of this.”

I know in the past I have done so, maybe not in callous words or shouting matches, but I have abused the privileges of friends in which I have left them to wonder exactly what I was thinking or feeling. I turned off from them, closed myself inwards and refused to talk. It – in a way was a mechanism to keep from imploding. I turned cold and would then say things I probably shouldn’t have. I get it now – we all make these mistakes.

Sometimes though, friends do differently – they scratch and claw by going head first at you and saying things without giving a chance to even rebuttal. Your defenses are down because you are friends, you care for these people and your heart is on a sleeve. So when they come at you with a battering ram, you don’t take it well…maybe some do, maybe some don’t. I can only speak for myself that when people have started to do just this, I have stepped back – then finally – I just walk away. I now refuse to be treated in a way, whether in passive aggressive angst, total chaotic behavior or pure malice. I’m done.

I think my silence speaks louder than words will ever do.

For credits and landmarks, see below

Send me an angel

Pose: RACK Poses “Never Apart” / Kirsty Oherlihy *The Theme Park*

Dress: (Cracked Mirror) Athena Dress – Orchid (sm) / Cracked Mirror *FaMESHed*
Boots: [Gos] Harley – Biker Boot – Six Pack (xs) / Gospel Voom
Skin: Glam Affair – Mokatana in Jamaica 02 H / Aida Ewing
Hair: Clawtooth – Moonage Daydream – Coffee / Bubbles Clawtooth *Collabor88*
Eyes: IKON – Promise Eyes in Hazel / Ikon Innovia
Hands: Slink – Mesh Hands in Gesture / Siddean Munro
Nail Appliers: {Wicked Peach} I ❤ You – Purple / Autumn Aramanth

Jacket & Pants: FATEplay – Reed in Dark / Damien Fate
Shoes: ISPACHI – Mason Brogues / Diarmuid Miklos
Skin: Swallow – Manu in Caramel / luciaeyes Magic *The Men’s Dept*
Hair: *ARGRACE* – Ryo in Light Brown (Light Browns pack) / rika Oyen
Facial Hair: *Valiant & Sacred* – 2.0 Beard v7 in Light / Wavie Haller
Eyes: IKON – Promise Eyes in Maldives / Ikon Innovia
Hands: Slink – Mesh Hands Male Relaxed / Siddean Munro


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