I’m not afraid of anything…even time…

She is weak, yet strong.

More so lately than before. An open wound just left open for infection to get in and sit pretty. Doesn’t sound so nice does it? But with self-realization and the understanding that She cannot control most things, her frustrations get the best of her. She tends to do stupid things then forgo the consequences later.

Most would say get it out, tell someone, talk openly and get it out. But how can you, when you don’t know? As much as we like to say that we shouldn’t care what people think, and how people perceive us – in actuality – we do care. We’re emotional fucking creatures that beg for understanding and appreciation from our peers.

Frustration. 

Wanting to do things, to vocalize situations and get things out, but how can one do it when it’s constantly a drawback? Petty things. These weaknesses that draw her in and bang her head against anything available. Thoughts rambled and displaced.

She can bite her lip, letting everything that wants to spill forth in a waterfall of honesty, hidden. It’s not that She is lying or keeping things, She‘s just blending them into her psyche so that people don’t question her take on things. It’s a safe haven.

Yet, because of her ability to open and trust, She begins a gradually progression of closing in a lot of times. Each time She gets hurt, She cocoons, and saying “fuck off” doesn’t sit well. She nit-picks at “whys”, “wants”, “needs”. She closes off more, until even her closest of friends can’t touch her. And due to it, She becomes something She doesn’t want to be – left, alone, and untouchable.

She wonders a lot about herself and questions her abilities. She questions herself: her looks, her build, her mind. It’s a hinder – a mind-numbing experience, because it controls her daily thoughts, her regime. She fully wonders if She’s capable to like, to love.

In other words – She questions everything.

Yet, She knows She’s strong. She knows She’s weak. It’s finding the balance that will steady the scales.

For credits and landmarks, see below

I'm not afraid of anythingDress: {Junbug} Quanyin in Jade (s) / Juno Matel *We ❤ RP*
Circlet: [Keystone] Zahiday’s Crown – Gold/Silver / Aymee Monk *The Fantasy Collective*
Wings: .Enfant Terrible. – Candle Light Dinner – Chandelier Wings – Silver / Jalilah Jewell
Skin: Glam Affair – Sylvia in America Base H / Aida Ewing *Collabor88*
Hair: [monso] My Hair – Elsa / Jannick Morphine *Collabor88*
Eyelids: Slink – Mesh Eyelids / Siddean Munro
Hands: Slink – Mesh Hands in Gesture / Siddean Munro
Nail Appliers: {Wicked Peach} Asia 3 Nails / Autumn Aramanth *World Tour Hunt*
Pose: Del May / Del May

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